Monday, January 05, 2009

First Blog in 09! :)

It's 2009, another year and I must say I am excited to see what this year has in store for me. My son graduates Elementary and will be stompin w/ the Jr High Kids by the end of the year; it is indeed a blessing. He is a blessing himself, the boy is smart as all shits & he is not bad, silly but not bad lol. He is a positive person and befriends people of ALL ages, lol..amazing young MAN.

Let's see what's new? Hmmm, started 09 still single, lol. I actually halfway started talking to someone and he made me smile like NO tomorrow. Since Thanksgiving I had been very depressed and my first true sunshine came with his kind words and gestures. As usual, I gave him a hard time when he first started flirting with me, I overlook stuff like that because I don't want to be bothered, but he peeled back a few layers and made his way in. Unfortunately that seems to be over, lol. I mean, it's like he stopped all of the cute things that had me interested in him and then he is standoffish. I ask him about himself and he is just like, "I'll tell you when we spend time together" question is, when is that going to be? lol He made comments about doing so but it stopped. After this weekend he probably thinks I'm bi-polar, lol, I hit him with hella shit but its because I let my wall down a LOT for him; I guess he just doesn't know what his kindness meant to me & the affect it had on me. I didn't want to get too mushy on him but yea, he did something to me. He intrigued me a lot (in MANY ways, if ya know what I mean, lol) and we have a lot in common. Our field is similar and I saw me helping him out & vise versa; not to mention I told my friends about him..yea, I was geeked lol. I've done the usual, pushed him away and normally I never go back on my word but it's been hard to not talk to him but whatever! I've been through so much and haven't let anyone near me in a min, he did his magic on me but I think it was for nothing; in the end, I started 09, single LOL...

As previously stated, I have been in the slumps since Thanksgiving, not too happy. I've had the urge to just leave TX - shits WHACK!! Christmas I spent in the hospital due to heart failure and someone stole my money while I was there (geesh). I'm okay now, did my little three days in the hospital and was released, been taking it easy since I got out. I will say, they fed a sista pretty good while in there lol. I think getting out & taking it easy it what opened me up wide open for ole buddy..damn, I'm missin his ass now LOL..Anyway, I want to again thank everyone who called, texted, emailed, twitted and sent prayers, it is/was MUCH appreciated! I'm doing okay and I promise Ihave been doing all I can to make sure the blood flows through my ticker okay, lol. I haven't been eating too many burgers and other fatting food...Not trying to be like this again:

On a brighter note, I've gained 15 pounds since September/October and it's in the RIGHT places, LOL. I don't even look 142 but yet I am. My clothes fit different, some I fill out more, others I can't fit at all..But hey, I think I like this weight thing (shout out to Shay-Tay, lol my fellow Slim-Thickum)

I hadn't written in a minute, so I wanted to take the time to update my blog. I'll leave you with a two quotes I plan to live by this year:

I won't let things I don't know intimidate me, I will take the time to learn what i don't know.

In Line, On Time, In 0-9!

Aiight, Gossip Girl time! ohhh, peace and blessings to my Jigga Juice..he recently was hospitalized as well and I'm happy he is doing better. I was worried about him but he is doing better and I thank GOD my good friend is able to send me mean texts every day again, LOL


maylady84 said...

hey Cat!

Girl i didn't know you was in the hospital. Glad to hear that you are doing just fine now! so you got a boy toy?!! Yay for you! girl i been so f-ing pissed and distraught I don't have the energy or time to even talk to the people I had in my life. Ugh! depression is a helluva thang! I'm slowly but surely coming out of it. I think. i pray!

anyway, I'm glad that you are doing good. Keep in touch!

AG. said...

Cat, you wear the 142lbs well!